"If we cannot live so as to be happy, let us at least live so as to deserve it."
~Immanuel Hermann Fichte

Wednesday, November 14, 2018

This is Why

 I have struggled with depression every single day of my adult life. 
Honestly, probably my whole life, but I was diagnosed as an adult. 
I sought help for the first time near the end of my broken marriage, 
and dove a little deeper after a relationship with a man deserving of 
his own special class designation of A-hole. I went from fragile soul 
to broken soul. I am so grateful that my daughter, who was dealing with 
her own struggles at that time, introduced me to T0P exactly when I 
needed them. (Thanks Kirsten!) It's not something that is easy to explain. 
It's not something that other people can necessarily see. It's not 
something I really talk about. It's a personal thing, and it's something 
I am proud to triumph over every single day. I'm a fighter. I've got this. 
With help, of course, I've got this. 


This is a very personal struggle, and in no way have I ever sought to ask 
anything of those around me. I am a functioning, albeit broken person 
who has so much hope inside. This, though. This is part of the reason why. 
This band. This music. These words. They resonate with me, and with so 
many people who are struggling and who need to know they are not alone. 
This is why I go to every concert I can. (One more this tour!) This is why 
I run, work, chill, sleep and breathe this music. 
This is a huge part of where the hope comes from. 

From the bottom of my heart, Thank you Tyler & Josh.

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Monkeys Rule

My kiddos went to stay at their dad's tonight, and yeah the house is quiet when they aren't here. I miss their company for sure when they're with their dad, BUT they are everywhere. I have flowers on my desk from Kirsten on Valentines, a drawing of Maiah's on my printer, Vernie has the laundry going and Elijah's latest snapchat made me smile. They are always with me in some form.

My monkeys are seriously the best.

Saturday, November 12, 2016

Watsky & Witt Lowry @ the Complex SLC 11/9

When Griz and Kirsten decided I should go with them to the Watsky concert last week I initially said yes because I love live music, and tend to like some of the same stuff they do. I knew it'd be a fun night, but I didn't expect to fall in love with not one, but 2 artists. I'd seen a bit of Watsky's stuff on youtube, and thought it was cool that he could rap so fast. Kirsten has listened to Witt for a long time, so I recognized some of his stuff, but hadn't paid attention to his lyrics. He reminds me a bit of Tyler Joseph in that respect. He writes about things that matter. That will impress me every time. You put these 2 rappers in one room for a few hours, and amazing things happen. I loved this concert, and sharing the experience with 2 of my favorite people. :)
The 1st 2 videos are Witt. Two very different songs, but I love 'em both.
Watsky is known for how fast he raps, but coming from the slam poetry scene, he has some awesome ideas and things to say. And he raps really, really fast. lol

The hook from this one was stuck in my head last night at work and made me happy. :)


I'm somewhere in this video! We were at the front of the crowd at this point. We started maybe 5 rows back from the stage, and with every surge of the crowd forward we pushed close until we were right up front.
Snapchat video of Witt on stage. This was where we started. We ended up closer each time people pushed forward. Then 2 pics of Watsky from Griz' phone.



Thursday, November 03, 2016

Today


Today was the most awesome sort of day. Brandon stayed at my place last night, on his way to Blizzcon with Spencer. So today, for one whole day I had my 2 oldest children to myself. We went into SLC and walked through City Creek Canyon, went to the mall & had lunch in my favorite spot that Salt Lake has to offer. On our way back to Orem we hit Ikea, then ended our day at the gym. It was a beautiful day & this momma had a blast. My oldest monkeys are complete goofballs and I love 'em to pieces.

Monday, October 24, 2016

Snapchat Fun

My monkeys and I send eachother snapchats to say hi, when we're bored and instead of texting. When my last phone died I saved the images from my card. I had a blast looking through the random stuff we send.

Sunday, October 09, 2016

Sunday, October 02, 2016

Beautiful Sunday

My monkeys, Once Upon a Time, twenty one pilots, Elvanar and Dominos Pizza. Today has been a beautiful Sunday.